26,Aug,23 -a letter

my thoughts betray my peace of mind disgusting, ugly, sinful thoughts my soul is given to u alone, but my mind wanders along the streets of 'before', these small tests are taking a toll on my mind, worthy I am because you chose me, unworthy I feel because they ignore me, words are supposed to remain a thing of literature, so when they bubble out at midnight, it's safe to assume it's not right, because they present themselves in the form of dreams I never dreamt, where I betray my peace , and reunite with the shadows of my regret. The things that were already set, now lose their habitat, burdened I am with the load of a choice, a choice bigger than life and death, a choice I've already made, but so hard to keep safe, my thoughts betray me, when I'm at my greatest. I am yours ,alone and my heart is at peace, but these thoughts startle me, even when I'm at most ease, these thoughts sneak up on me. So save me, from these daft thoughts I rely upon u my Lord, with my heart and soul my lord give me hope, for I'm at my lowest my lord give me hope, for I feel hopeless my lord, fill my heart with your love alone my lord, unburden me from my past regrets, my lord, make my soul pure.