2 Lives, 1 Choice

Internally torn between the flame &the tree Life by the line made by the men before me or to live at the speed of the average highway limit To be bold or to be timid to inhale the toxins that hold me down contridictally the same toxins that set me free I'm torn between being happy or being ready cause you won't catch me not being steady but is it really slippin if I'm not locked inside & I've got enough money for my own ride but that's not what I desire I crave that emotional & internal remedy My mind is able to work properly without the drugs but I can't stop falling in love with these thugs I can't advance myself spiritually if my sobriety only occurs periodically What the actual fuck should I choose? Dopamine is the goal, but do I find it in love or slugs? Which would I regret more? Giving away my beautiful youth or living life as a bore Can I find happiness inside the line that's straight &narrow or would it be a waste of this breath I borrow Inside I'm internally torn What will I find when I discover what's found inside my core...