12

“I don't know why i do this to myself” I say, manipulating myself into thinking I'm the problem. Why would i love someone so much When I'm only 12. I can't love, right? because when i love someone And i think they love me back That is when I finally love myself. But the sad truth is that They never loved me. “Its okay, im fine😀” I say knowing that i'm not, But i can't have people worry about me Im only 12. I can't love. right? “Im glad he's happy😀” I say, knowing that seeing him happy with Someone else makes me sad And it makes me hurt But im only 12. I can't love someone when I'm so young. Right? “I really loved him____” I said to my friend. She says she knows, but she really didn't know. I've written so many poems saying I love him. I've written so many stories about how we met, The first time we talked, The pictures he would send me. I've had so many dreams of us being together, so happy But im only 12. I can't love like an adult would love. right? Why would i love someone so much When im only 12 and that love wouldn't be reciprocated.